Family fun and little more...

Today was a nice day =) got to spend most of the day w/my parents, brothers (and wives) and my 5 nieces. We had lots of food and even cake for dessert. My dad did most of the barbecuing and I think most of us ended up w/very full bellies. It was nice to see my two youngest nieces playing together and I got to take some nice snapshots through out the day.

There was only one part that wasn't nice and was when a relative I had not seeing in over a year asked if I had any kids of my own yet, the question came after this person also mentioned that I look bigger than last time he had seeing me. So not only was I uncomfortable, but a lot of the sudden got emotional and had to walk away to cry for a little bit. I mean what was I supposed to say? Mmmh yes I know I'm fat and no I'm not pregnant, but I've been trying for almost 2 years now and so far had 2 failed IUI's...nope I just said, yes I've gain weight as you can see and no no babies yet, then I felt like tears were coming and walked away...kinda dumb I know. However, I did recover after a few mins. and joined the rest of the family.

Taking a forced, but no so unwelcomed break

So after another failed IUI (#2) I went in today for my baseline ultrasound. Unfortunately it showed I have 4 not so small cysts, 1 on the right ovary and 3 on the left. Therefore, the RE said I'm not doing injections/medications this cycle. I do have to do 1 HCG shot tomorrow, to see if that helps the cysts go away faster and hopefully by next cycle they'll be gone.
A few days ago, J and I talked about how if this cycle didn't work, we were gonna take a month break, since the past 2 month, last one specially, I've been feeling really stressed. Therefore, taking this month off from TTC is not that bad, and I look forward to start "fresh" next cycle (w/out any big cyst).
As for this month, I'm planning to relax and focus on learning how to use my new camera =)

Bittersweet weekend...

This weekend was not one of favorites, it started w/another temperature drop =(. After getting my progesterone levels (8.8) I was bummed, so by friday after 3 low temp I knew this cycle we were out.

I tried to not stay too sad and went out w/my SIL and my 3 nieces. That was nice, I guess it was the sweet part of my weekend. We went to out for a yummy brunch and then to walked around Alameda's shopping center, then went to the beach, it was about 68 and really sunny. It was cute how Miriam kept saying she wanted to build a sand castle and Nancy was playing w/her.

The bitter, bad part of my weekend happened friday night, someone really close to me said some really not nice, mean things, and let's just say that it really hurt =(...since that person did apologized, I gonna try to forgive and forget. Just hope that doesn't happen again.

I do have another good news from this weekend, though. My camera came in! Yay! now I must really learn how to use it. I'm looking forward to it, and hope I learn to take decent photos.

So, today is sunday around noon and the weather is the total opposite of what friday was, right now is raining and grey out there. I guess it kinda matches my mood, since AF decided pop her head 5 days early. Well, I just hope next week and next cycle will be better, I pray that soon we get to have our little miracle.