Feeling pathetic =(

Tonight a relative announce (through FB) that she's pregnant, even included a pic. holding the pee stick. So, what's my first reaction...a mixture of saddness w/why can't that be me? just last week 2 people I know announce their pregnancys (a co-worker and a old highshool friend). I feel horrible because I do want to be happy for them, specially for my cousin, but it just hurts =( . It's stupid, and even mean, but I notice the closer I'm to the person (who is pg) the more it stings. I hate myself for feeling like that, and I hate body even more.