Sunday, September 23, 2012

Nieces+ camera =

a short, but fun session.
These were all taken under the tree because it was really sunny around 2-3pm. Btw, yesterday was the first day of Fall, but it def. felt like summer weather still.
Can't wait to have actual Autumn weather, I want cold crispy air, cloudy and sometimes even rainy days and orange leaves, oh and hot chocolate, soups and white mochas...can't you tell I'm ready for this weather to change?!
For now here are some shots from yesterday...these are 2 of my nieces H & M.

Gotta love this girl!
 
They both like blowing gittler. H & M thanx! N next time it's your turn =D
 
 
 
 
 
She wanted a photo w/her now fav. video game "Kirby"
 
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Thursday, September 13, 2012

A woman's work is never done

my mom has said to me more than once, she's so right. For example today is my day off (since I'm working this saturday) It's only 11 am and so far I already did the following: made the bed, dishes (clean the kitchen), dusted a bit, and 2 loads of laundry. I did get to sleep in 2 more hrs so thats a plus of my day off. Later on I'm going to my parents house to do 2 more loads of laundry (sheets and comforter) and when I come home I'm planning to make dinner "devil shrimp" soo yumm! btw =)
So I do believe most of the time a woman works more than a man. In my parents case even though both of my parents work full times jobs, once home my dad (most of the time) would sit and relax while my mom made dinner and some house chores, although I would always help her too. As for my husband, well about 90% of the time after work he just relaxes while about 70% of the time I come home from work and worry about making dinner and cleaning up...althought sometimes I just ignore the chores too =)

Sunday, September 9, 2012

Pigeon point lighthouse trip

Yesterday, my brother and his family plus myself went on a nice little trip. Pigeon point light house it's only 1&15mins from my house and can you believe we had never been there? So we went and enjoyed not only visiting the lighthouse, but also we stopped by a beach that was about 10mins before the lighthouse. The sand was really light and the water soo blue. I Love IT! Can't wait to go back and hopefully next time J and my parents will come along.
( I took over 100 photos, but of course I'm only posting a few)
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
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Tuesday, September 4, 2012

Having an "FUIF" you really suck day

Today was a long day...work was busy, we were short staff and I got news that a co-worker is having twins. I'm honestly happy for her. She already has a 2 year old (in part thanx to clomid) and now she's having twins, after another round of it. So I'm happy for her. I just wished freaking clomid had work for me too, but instead the only time that I was on it I got a freaking big cyst that had to be aspirated (not a fun experience).
On the way home I checked facebook and the last 3 updates from my "friends" where:
1. A high school friend posted a pic of her 3day old newborn
2. My cousin thatjust seems like yesterday announced she was pregnant found out today she's having a boy
3. Said co-worker posted an ultrasound pic of her twins

After that I just kinda broke down...got home and just broke down crying by myself on the bed. It just seems so unfair that others seem to have it so easy. I know for my co-worker it wasn't that easy since she did have to do clomid. However, after trying clomid, femara for 4 cycles, and injections for other 4 cycles, a total of 5 failed IUI's I can't help thinking 1 or 2 cycles of clomid is easy. I'm not trying to be a bit**. I just feel like such a failure and empty. I guess the fact that I got an invitation for a baby shower 4 days ago, didn't help w/my breaking down and crying either.
Sometimes I wonder if I'll ever get to be a mom, sometimes I'm too scare to know the truth, I avoid thinking too much about it =(
Many times I feel alone on this, which is more depressing...
I also wonder if I'm/ have been such bad person and that's why I don't get to be a mother (some punishment) it's kinda stupid to think that, but it does cross my mind sometimes.
Like I said I feel empty and some days like today it's easier to feel that emptiness. Its like whatever temporary bandaid I put to cover the "wound" gets removed and it really hurts!

Monday, September 3, 2012

A week in photos

Today, labor day we (mom & my self)took these two to the park
 

 
This was thursday. My aunt came to visit from Mexico. She and my mom had not seeing each other in 22 years.
 
Girlies playing hide and go seek =)
 
My 11 yr old niece drew this, she's really has a talent for drawing.
 
 
Crazy little ones...
 
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