ballet girls...

So my 3 younger nieces (5,3 & 2) are in the "ballerina" stage and my parents bought them the outfit. Yesterday I went over and took some pics...with flash(I know:fail) since it was after sunlight and indoors (it was cold outside). Here they are:
funny girls =)


cute Y.


Shy M.

Random, etc...

Just finished doing a 30 min workout and it gave me a good sweat =). My goal is to lose 30 lbs by the end of June so I have over 4 months to do that. I just started to exercise last week, my plan is to exercise 3 x's a wk for 30mins for this month, then 4 x's a wk starting next month. I still need to eat healthier and I admit I have many temptations =(
I really want to be 10lbs less by the time I go back to the RE and restart treatment. I know that losing weight can help me/us increase the chances for a baby and yes, that's one of my top motives to lose weight (most likely it is the top one).
These past days I've been feeling down. Yesterday another co-worker mentioned that she was pregnant (3 this year so far) almost 5 months. She also mentioned that this will be her 5th child and after this one is born, she'll have 3 under 3. Best part is she claims she had the IUD (form of birth control)!...After that I felt miserable and as infertile as possible for the rest of the day =(. Don't get me wrong, I don't hate women that have no trouble conceiving, I just hate the fact that after 2+ years and fertility treatment we don't have a little one of our own.

For now I'm trying to remain POSITIVE. Will try to LOSE WEIGHT/be healthier. And to learn/practice and enjoy photography.

And because I know this post is kinda depressing: here's my cute niece (Mimi)

water & family...

trying to get some water drops shots

my cute and sweet niece


my handsome husband that turned 30 yesterday...still a boy =)

Parents

Swirl Heart 5x7 folded card

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Everyone is getting pregnant

but me!

or so it seems =(
We been on a break since NOV.2010 (almost 3 months already)and to be honest it feels like time has been frozen when it comes to TTC. I told my self to be positive and strong about TTC and I'm trying, however I already had one break down a few nights ago. It's barely the 3rd week of January and so far I've heard of 2 new pregnancies @ work, plus an old friend and one cousin just had their 1st babies...so staying positive and strong gets hard. I know I'm not the only woman struggling to have a baby, but sometimes it feels that way.
So a few nighs ago I broke down and cried. I cried for the baby I don't have and for the baby I may never have. I cried for having a broken body and for feeling that way. I cried for not being " a normal woman" and not being able to get pregnant and have a baby "the normal way". I also cried because I feel weak, and I don't want to be weak. I want to be strong and keep fighting until we have our baby then I know all of it will be worthed.

Family, random...

*My mom, sister in law, aunt and my cousins

*The home made cupcakes were yummy and were made and decorated by my 5 nieces, SIL and myself.

DIY camera bag 2.0

So I wasn't completely happy w/my first home-made "camera bag" so I bought another purse/bag (which was $8 dollars more than the first one) and even though I had to re size the cushion inserts I'm happier now =).

*pls. excuse my mismatch pj's




I got the "Hope" sign for $2 @ Ross =) It was yellow so I painted it "coffee brown", but it actually looks like chocolate. I think this sign really describes our feeling toward this new year. We have hope for many things: J to find a good/stable job. Be healthy, and most importantly, we hope for a baby! To expand our family of 2 to 3 =)