Photos, girls and a bird...

On Saturday, thanks to my sister in law, we found this cool spot to take photos =) I had been wanting to take some in a location like this. Unfortunately after 10 mins my nieces were done. Hopefully I can go next weekend with my other 3 victims, I mean nieces. =p



This one was taken in my parents bedroom...overexposed: Yes! but I still like them.

This little guy, that was about my 2 year old nieces height was chilling while I took photos of the girls. However, as soon as I tried to get closer to take it's picture, it flew =(

Photos =)

This Saturday I took some photos co-worker's daughter, it was nice and although the sun was kinda harsh I think we got some good photos.

Graduations and photos...

We had a little "party" to celebrate 2 of my nieces promotions. One is starting middle school and the other one just finished Kinder garden. We had pizza, cupcakes, and candies. The girls seems to had a good time, specially the 2 little ones were excited and really enjoy playing w/the balloons...I love my nieces =)

Still waiting

It's been almost 3 months since my last (5th) IUI. Since the result was negative I made my first appt. w/the IVF specialist (appt. is in July). Part of me is still in denial about it, while the other part wish we could get the "ball" rolling for IVF already, unfortunately we won't be able to afford that anytime soon =(. In September of this year it will be 3 years since I stopped the pill and thought I was going to be pregnant 3-6 months after that...ha, to be so ignorant! Now 32 months later, 5 failed IUI's later, lots of tears and a much broken heart I STILL want to be a MOMMY! Still day dream about the day I get to hold my baby for the first time, or get to listen to his/hers little heartbeat...I even get teary just thinking about it.
A few days ago J. and I were talking and he mentioned what was of his biggest fears in life (I wont say it) then I told him mine, which is that I won't ever get to be a mom. However, I'm fighting that fear by dismissing it as soon as it sneaks into my mind, more than once. I'm also trying to be positive & hopeful, which I admit its easier some days than others.

Look got I got =)

5x7 Folded Card

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this pretty card from Shutterfly

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this pretty much sums up how I've been feeling and feel @ the moment...tired,lonely, sad, frustrated, disappointed...not very positive I know. Just HOPING things get better soon!