Wednesday, August 25, 2010

Keep trying...

That's what I tell my self every time a cycle ends and I'm not pregnant. I was supposed to test (pregnancy) this coming Saturday, but I guess AF decided to not let me have anymore hopes for this cycle and came 5 days early =( I feel upset/sad and disappointed. Like always, I tell my self to not get my hopes to high up, but I guess I always do because at the end when it's another BFN or AF gets here I cry. Today, I went in for my baseline scan and it turns out I have 3 cysts, even though they were not too big the RN did say that they might have an impact on how my follicles responded to the meds. So, I decided to wait or take a treatment free cycle and give those cysts a chance to go away. Also, it's a break from the stress and emotional roller coaster that TTC is.
I was doing fine, or at least I thought that until a couple that was standing next to me (while I waited for my follow-up instructions) was handed their first pregnancy ultrasound...Yep, I even saw it when the MA gave it to them and said what it was. Right after I was able to leave and of course had to hold tears from the elevator to my car. I just hope one day we get to have our first pregnancy ultrasound too.
To make my self feel a bit better I got a new book that just came out yesterday, I had waited for a while:

Thursday, August 19, 2010

10 days to go...

So today is 5 days past ovulation/past IUI#3. I'm supposed to test on the 28th, but I decided I'm waiting and extra day, 8/29/10. I just hate being disappointed and I'm scare of testing =( . Of course I'm hoping and praying for the best(a BFP) and I go back and forth from being positive and hopeful to getting mad at my self for getting my hopes to high. Also having "phantom symptoms" doesn't help much. I've been having breast tenderness for the past 6 days, so most likely is just a late side effect from bravelle. Today for about 2hrs I have cramps on and off. Maybe it's just wishful thinking...=/
Yesterday I went to Ross and passed the baby area and I refused to look @ the baby stuff, this might some dumb, but I don't want to jinx my self. This 2 wks of waiting are driving me crazy...

Saturday, August 14, 2010

And the waiting begins...

Today IUI#3 was done and now we wait. I know the next 2 weeks are going to be nerve raking, but I'm gonna try to stress as less possible. J's numbers were better than the last 2 IUIs so that made me feel better. Like always, hoping and praying this is IT!

Thursday, August 12, 2010

Finally moving on...

So after almost 3 months of waiting and wanting to move onto IUI#3 I finally got the okay from my RE today. I started Bravelle (injections) last Friday and today (cd#9) I was told to do the trigger shot tonight and the IUI is schedule for this Saturday @ 11:40am. I'm really happy that this time my body responded better to the treatment. Last time I did injections I was on 150 units, this time I did 225units for 5 days and 150 for two. Like always, I'm really hoping and praying that this will be It and that 2 weeks from this coming Saturday we'll get our BFP.
I can't wait to be mom and just hope and pray it'll happen one day (soon).